"One day, he’s going to know. He’ll know your birthday, your middle name, where you were born, your star sign, and your parents names. He’ll know how old you were when you learnt to ride a bike, how your grandparents passed away, how many pets you had, and how much you hated going to school. He’ll know your eye colour, your scars, your freckles, your laugh lines and your birth marks. He’ll know your favourite book, movie, candy, food, pair of shoes, colour, and song. He’s going to know why you’re awake at 5am most nights, where you were when you realised you’d lost a good friend, why you picked up the razor and how you managed to put it down before things went too far. He’s going to know your phobias, your dreams, your fears, your wishes, and your worries. He’s going to know about your first heartbreak, your dream wedding, and your problems with your parents. He’ll know your strengths, weaknesses, laziness, energy, and your mixed emotions. He’s going to know about your love for mayonnaise, your dream of being famous when you were five, your need to quote any film you know all the way through, and your fear of growing older. He’ll know your bad habits, your mannerisms, your stroppy pout, your facial expressions, and your laugh like it’s his favourite song. The way you chew, drink, walk, sleep, fidget and kiss. He’s going to know that you’ve already picked out wedding flowers, baby names, tiles for the bathroom, bridesmaid dresses, and the colour of your bedroom walls. He’s going to know, get annoyed at and then accept that you leave clothes everywhere, take twenty minutes to order a Starbucks, have to organise your DVD’s alphabetically, and check your horoscope… just incase. He’ll know your McDonald’s order, how many sugars to put in your tea, how many scoops of ice cream you want, and that you need your sandwiches cut into triangles. He’s going to know how you feel without you telling him, that you need a wee from a look on your face, and that you’re crying without shedding tears. He’s going to know all of it. Everything. You, from top to bottom and inside out. From learning, from sharing, from listening, from watching. He’s going to know every single thing there is to know, and you know what else? He is still going to love you."

"She has moved on, and I feel sorry for you because she thought you were the most important guy ever. If she could have any guy in the world she would have picked you above all others.
She thought you we’re different, she was wrong, and all you are is just another guy to her now."

Shah if youre reading this i just wanted to say im just confused thats all. Fahim means nothing to me he was history and he still is and idgaf if hes changed or not he still didn’t prove it to me and even if he did i dont want him i want you. Its always been you over fahim and still is. Hes nothing to me but you’re everything to me and i cant even begin to describe how amazing you are to me you mean the world to me . You’ve given me everything like the whole entire world at my feet you always bring effort , you give me 100 percent but what did fahim ever do for? he never did shit for me always needed me when he was vulnerable what the fuck did he ever do for me? the love youve given me was what i always wanted and youre the only guy in my life that i ever truly loved that has given me a name made it official with me. I remember being single all my life always wishing that i could have my own boyfriend so i can expierence cute dates, long walks and talks and makeout sessions but never because hmm i thought that id wait around for fahim to actually have some guts to make me his but no he just played around with me for two years made me suffer through hell and back. I got beaten to a pulp because of him . So why would i ever reconsider going back to him, to my past for what? to go through hell again? to feel like i was taken advantage of because i was that dumb girl who was fooled so many times by fahim and not once has he ever considered my feelings. A HEARTLESS MOTHERFUCKING BASTARD IS WHAT HE IS OK AND I LOVE YOU SHAH NAWAZ THE ONLY GUY IN THIS WORLD WHO HAD THE POWER TO MAKE ME SMILE THROUGH ALL THE TEARS AND PAIN I THOUGHT NO GUY COULD EVER DO THAT TO ME LIKE YOU DID.