Shah if youre reading this i just wanted to say im just confused thats all. Fahim means nothing to me he was history and he still is and idgaf if hes changed or not he still didn’t prove it to me and even if he did i dont want him i want you. Its always been you over fahim and still is. Hes nothing to me but you’re everything to me and i cant even begin to describe how amazing you are to me you mean the world to me . You’ve given me everything like the whole entire world at my feet you always bring effort , you give me 100 percent but what did fahim ever do for? he never did shit for me always needed me when he was vulnerable what the fuck did he ever do for me? the love youve given me was what i always wanted and youre the only guy in my life that i ever truly loved that has given me a name made it official with me. I remember being single all my life always wishing that i could have my own boyfriend so i can expierence cute dates, long walks and talks and makeout sessions but never because hmm i thought that id wait around for fahim to actually have some guts to make me his but no he just played around with me for two years made me suffer through hell and back. I got beaten to a pulp because of him . So why would i ever reconsider going back to him, to my past for what? to go through hell again? to feel like i was taken advantage of because i was that dumb girl who was fooled so many times by fahim and not once has he ever considered my feelings. A HEARTLESS MOTHERFUCKING BASTARD IS WHAT HE IS OK AND I LOVE YOU SHAH NAWAZ THE ONLY GUY IN THIS WORLD WHO HAD THE POWER TO MAKE ME SMILE THROUGH ALL THE TEARS AND PAIN I THOUGHT NO GUY COULD EVER DO THAT TO ME LIKE YOU DID.